Day 5: I HATE IT!

I don't like this experiment. I'm stressed the hell out and it's not like a surface stress that you can have a glass of wine and forget about. It's lack of sleep and biting nails kind of stress.

I forgot to put q-tips on the list last week, along with juice boxes and coffee creamer. The Juice boxes aren't a big deal because the kids' lunch boxes came with attached water bottles. A week of water with lunch won't hurt them. But q-tips are a daily reminder that I suck and my creamer is going to run out before my mother comes in for a visit and who in their right mind has house guests and no coffee creamer?!

Every time I eat something out of the pantry or fridge, I see dollar amounts and wonder if I'll have enough money to replace it next week. I've been pretending to be broke for 5 days and I'm already craving the McDonald's Dollar Menu. What kind of sick joke is this?

I also desperately want to eat out. I keep coming up with excuses for why my husband and I should have lunch together or go out for dinner. This I really don't understand because for once in my life I have all my meals mapped out. I know exactly what I'm making every night of the week. The food is bought and planned and I can even thaw the meat the day before, like a good little Stepford wife and OH MY GOD, I think it's slowly KILLING ME!

There's something beautifully free about making mistakes with no real consequences. I think I always knew deep down inside that this country is not a free one. Now, I think that reality is being supported by the class system. The only way you can enjoy freedom is if you are able to pay for it.

Things a Working Class Family of Four Can't afford:

A college Education

Putting Money in Savings

Eating Out

Private Education

To Make Mistakes