I am a ball of nervous energy today. I just met with my direct supervisor for my teaching position. I really like her, or at least I WANT to like her, but when I talk to her I can't help but feel that there is this constant tug-o-war or battle for who can make better points about the subject matter. I give in because I am not stupid, and because she is certainly more experienced and educated than I. At the base of our discussion, I can tell that we both have the same motive and that makes it easier. I like to tell her that I appreciate her guidance but I think it comes across as me kissing her ass. There really is no winning in this situation and the truth is, I think I like it. I think I may finally be experiencing professionalism among a group of strong, intelligent women, and it inspires me to be true to myself and my work, to know where I am going, and to be prepared to hold myself up along the way.
Yesterday I began writing my very own syllabus. Today I had my syllabus approved while losing a pissing contest. On Tuesday I will begin teaching, but right now, I am motivated to succeed.
Back to work World!
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